just now

well , now after all happen, im just realize everything..well i just hate it..i knw..i have to face it, and when i accept it, its just getting good. its nice but i just never believe to it anymore. i think no one worth for my trust..all is the same. I knw..i really conscious bout tht , i knw tht not all people do the same, but i just cant , and i choose to close my eyes, my ears from any other sounds cause i dont want to believe and i just afraid to fall to the second time, i just wont...and i cant bare tht...so..just shut up..i wont hear tht...so wht, its me and i just live like that, just leave me alone..cause im always alone..